Am confused

It was nice when i was kid.
Great days of my life.
Each days were new and fresh.
When i learned to ride bicycle alone..oh it was something like a big achievement for me.
All were friends ..no enemies..
Even when we fight ...it stays only for sometimes.
No tomorrows ..only today...
when i feel sleep ...just sleep...
No wakeup calls...no alarms..no routine..
Always happy,if you need something just cry as much as ...dad and mom make it happen.
There was no target for the day..
Mind was free...just happiness.
Colourful days ..but never back..
Nostalgic memories for all..

But now am so confused of you..
You make my life so terrible.
I wanna come out from this thought.
Somedays i was really feel happy.
Now am not interested for anything.
You and your thoughts makes me mad.
Mind is like a desert or sea with no waves.
Kind of suffering for nothing.
Feel to ignore you.
Too late, time to follow my heart...